Change

Greetings and Salutations,

When Sam Cooke sings “a change is gonna come” it just resonates with me. I hear Sam now and then over on XM’s Soul Street. When change comes, there’s never enough preparation I can do to be truly ready. I don’t know how to act or respond. I just lost a dear friend of mine whom I’ve known for 21 years. It reminded me of the time when I lost my father. I get numb and I want to do something to keep my mind off of it.

I had a sudden awareness earlier today. When death occurs, it’s the living that is shocked with suffering. I truly believe that when someone crosses over, they are no longer in suffering but at peace. They are in a different dimension but can see us. It’s like I see you, but you can’t see me…….gotcha! I will miss my friend. He’s probably off smoking Cuban cigars and eating greasy food. Good for him. Meanwhile, us folks over at the ranch get to shake our empty pockets, shell out lots of money for expensive groceries and try to hold on to our now 10K funds from being eaten up.

I’m about to record again for the first time in years and I’m frightened to death of it and excited at the time. I’ve spent time away preparing myself in a much needed way, but again I’m not prepared for the emotion of saying goodbye to one chapter and starting a new one.

I’ve been writing and revising new songs over the years. I want to get things just right, the perfectionist that I am. I even question if I am doing the right thing and then I then I hear that ‘tiny voice in my head’ that fast forwards 10 or even 20 years from now saying, I wonder what it would have been like if I had recorded again. I don’t want to be in that position to wonder what I should-have-would-have-could-have done. The time is now. That ‘tiny voice in my head’ says now is the time and will continue to hear it.

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