Today I am feeling very old school. The doc says my voice will be just fine with “west and welaxation at wast.” Well, I don’t think so but at least the prognosis looks good. I’ve been feeling very old school. I’m listening to one of favorite Eno compositions, Music for Film. Check out what he does with rhythm on the track “M386“. It’s somewhat somber, serious and moving at the same time. It feels very familiar to me and hopefully with you as well. Enjoy and discover Eno.
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Music For Film
Saturday, November 15th, 2008OUTMusic: Breast Cancer Awareness
Wednesday, October 8th, 2008Good Evening,
It’s almost morning by my account. I just wanted to drop you a few lines to let you know that last night’s Outmusic Open Mic was a wonderful fundraiser for Breast Cancer awareness. There were moving testimonials of how women battled the disease like true warriors, armed with their creativity to survive. There were some great performances. I think they were all were great and very different. We had blues, hip/hop, folk, rock, jazz and comedy.
I had a blast singing last night. I have to thank all the organizers at Outmusic for their warm welcome. I felt at home there and I really like the new venue. They created a nice space and the GLBT Center in Manhattan and kept it intimate at the same time. I posted a couple of pics.
Athena Reich made us laugh. The duo reminded me of Jerry Lewis and Dean Martin. Ganessa James can make a guitar hum and she’s got a great voice to go with it.
Thanks to all the fellas that came out to support. It was a truly a ‘family affair.’ Thank you, Outmusic.
Change
Monday, October 6th, 2008Greetings and Salutations,
When Sam Cooke sings “a change is gonna come” it just resonates with me. I hear Sam now and then over on XM’s Soul Street. When change comes, there’s never enough preparation I can do to be truly ready. I don’t know how to act or respond. I just lost a dear friend of mine whom I’ve known for 21 years. It reminded me of the time when I lost my father. I get numb and I want to do something to keep my mind off of it.
I had a sudden awareness earlier today. When death occurs, it’s the living that is shocked with suffering. I truly believe that when someone crosses over, they are no longer in suffering but at peace. They are in a different dimension but can see us. It’s like I see you, but you can’t see me…….gotcha! I will miss my friend. He’s probably off smoking Cuban cigars and eating greasy food. Good for him. Meanwhile, us folks over at the ranch get to shake our empty pockets, shell out lots of money for expensive groceries and try to hold on to our now 10K funds from being eaten up.
I’m about to record again for the first time in years and I’m frightened to death of it and excited at the time. I’ve spent time away preparing myself in a much needed way, but again I’m not prepared for the emotion of saying goodbye to one chapter and starting a new one.
I’ve been writing and revising new songs over the years. I want to get things just right, the perfectionist that I am. I even question if I am doing the right thing and then I then I hear that ‘tiny voice in my head’ that fast forwards 10 or even 20 years from now saying, I wonder what it would have been like if I had recorded again. I don’t want to be in that position to wonder what I should-have-would-have-could-have done. The time is now. That ‘tiny voice in my head’ says now is the time and will continue to hear it.
Grace Jones – Corporate Cannibal
Thursday, July 10th, 2008Greetings, Corporate Cannibal is awesome. Grace is back and in black and white too. This is going down as new classical Grace in my book. Grace is delivering ambient, avant garde, funk with rock subtexts and rhythms to die for. Corporate Comrades, don’t turn the other cheek! Put some Grace in your face.
Stage Fright
Monday, July 7th, 2008Stage Fright or ‘Fright Night’ as it sometimes feels like is something that I deal with constantly. It’s this little private war that goes on in my brain. The little grey cells deceive me. It’s similar to the nervousness that I get when flying in a plane but that’s whole separate conversation. It’s the fear of failure and/or high expectations. Somehow I manage to pull it all together, naked feelings and all.
When I’m on stage there are funny feelings in my stomach and I feel like one of those drones from George A. Romero’s Night of the Living Dead. It lasts for about 10 seconds than it goes away. During those 10 seconds all hell breaks loose in my head. Am I going to forget the lyrics? Am I going to stumble and fall over my own feet? Will I stutter? What if they don’t like me? Will I be able to open my mouth? And it lasts for just 10 seconds. I wrote a song about it. It’s called Dark Caverns.
But alas, I take my brain out of the deep freeze and do the job that I was called to do at that critical moment. I stand tall…… okay not so tall, and deliver. When I am in my element, which is when I am singing I am totally connected because I am doing what I truly enjoy the most. La Voz (the voice) takes over and the spirit of the moment is seized.
Those 10 seconds of fear are inevitable and so my goal is always how can I be totally prepared so I don’t have it to think or worry about my performance. For me that usually translates into practice, practice, practice. I can practice like a demon on steroids. No, I don’t do or condone the use of steroids but I do believe in drinking locally roasted coffee and it has to be the very best. Perhaps its part of the problem but I support my local Roasteria.
The other aspect of Stage Fright is wondering who is going to bother to come out and see me any way. It’s a Catch 22 situation. Besides, with the price of gas inching up to $5 a gallon, it’s a wonder we can all afford to go anywhere let alone to a concert. In fact, there is correlation between increased gas prices and my Stage Fright.
You see, it goes like this. If Congress had better reigns over the U.S. oil barons, speculators and better solutions to long term sustainable and cleaner energy, we would be less co-dependent upon non U.S. resources.
Taking it a step further, if our government provided incentives for businesses to build an infrastructure for a green economy, legislation that spawned new manufacturing here in the U.S, permanent tax incentives for consumers who go green, it would create new jobs and ‘fuel’ the economy. People would have new job opportunities and our dependency on oil would be reduced U.S. auto manufacturers would have fewer lay offs. We would shift significantly to cleaner energy sources that were safe for the environment. Al Gore could then go play golf on the green.
Finally, people would have more disposable income and perhaps more leisure time and could afford to come see me perform. The awareness of a potential increase in audience attendance would ease my fears, thus reducing my sense of Stage Fright. So if I procrastinate, know that it is done in absolute protest or our staggering economy…..yeah!
You see, it all makes cents now. Don’t you think?
Jersey City Pride
Monday, August 28th, 2006Saturday, August 26th marked my return to the stage for the first time in two years and it was a wonderful experience. I made an appearance at Jersey City Pride and. It couldn’t have gone any better. Working with the crew at JCLGO was great. Their stage crew and volunteers run a first rate operation. I was very impressed by their level of professionalism and hospitality.Performing really does something for me spiritually and I must never let it go that long again. That was then and this is now. Since I sang at the beginning of the show, they asked me to sing the national anthem. That followed with “Whatever It Takes” and “Too Good for You” to complete the set. I was really feeling it and the sound was just awesome. The weather was good to us despite the overcast clouds. I was a bit cold because we were right off the Hudson River on Exchange Place.
Just before going on stage, I had the chance to meet the wonderful Karen Davis. We discovered that we both had the Black Rock Coalition in common. We spent the time reminiscing over who we both knew in common in the early 90s. Karen Davis is a remarkable rocker, singer/songwriter/guitarist. She’s got a great voice, plays a mean guitar and killer boots. Go check her out sometime at http://www.sonicbids.com/karendavis or http://www.ezfolk.com/