{"id":396,"date":"2012-07-01T22:26:40","date_gmt":"2012-07-02T03:26:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.martinadowney.com\/tinyvoice\/?p=396"},"modified":"2012-07-01T22:26:40","modified_gmt":"2012-07-02T03:26:40","slug":"waking-the-dead","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.martinadowney.com\/tinyvoice\/?p=396","title":{"rendered":"Waking the Dead"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dreaming about death can be a terrifying and cold song<\/a>, so much so that when you wake up the raw emotions remain with you such as the case at 4am this morning. \u00a0You\u2019re like a plane that wants to land, but the landing gear won\u2019t drop.\u00a0 \u00a0And when you wake up you can\u2019t get back to sleep again because you\u2019re terrified and too afraid to analyze it. \u00a0The raw emotion is captivating, so much so that you possess the urge to distance yourself emotionally.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s your worst fear when you dream about a loved one that goes missing, then kidnapped and harmed.\u00a0 Then the next day you try to assemble the pieces like a jigsaw puzzle, wondering what lead to that.\u00a0 Was it something you ate? Could it have been a reaction to something that happened during the day? \u00a0In fact, you don\u2019t have the guts to journalize about it because of the fear and the lack of getting a good night sleep.\u00a0 You get a sigh of relief when reality sets in and your mind reconciles with your nervous system.<\/p>\n

Despite the obvious fear, I think dreams about death have more to do with managing events in life.\u00a0 Like death itself, it\u2019s the dawn of a new life challenge and the eve of another.\u00a0 It feels much like change which is difficult in itself.\u00a0\u00a0 When you look beyond the obvious, it\u2019s a way to bring something that needs to be dealt with to your immediate attention.\u00a0 Bookmark that!\u00a0 No Watson, \u201cthe game is afoot.\u201d<\/p>\n

If change is like a difficult ship that is hard to maneuver in the night, then dreams are like light houses that pave a clear path.\u00a0 When they moved the Intrepid from the Hudson River for a remake, it was no easy task.\u00a0 The dang boat was really stuck in the mud for decades of being sedimentary.\u00a0 It took lots of tugging and basic engineering to get her to move, but she did budge eventually. \u00a0And that\u2019s what change feels like sometimes, especially as you grow older.<\/p>\n

Dreams can be a gymnasium for working out life\u2019s problems.\u00a0 Dreams can also be a trip, a dimension for communicating with those who are no longer living.\u00a0 When I dream for instance, I am not always conscious whether or not the people I\u2019m interacting with are actually still living. \u00a0In fact, I have no recollection that they have passed on.\u00a0 I dream of my parents, relatives, friends and even former baby (secondary mothers) sitters.\u00a0 I\u2019ve even written about my experiences with them during the dreams.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve had dreams of doing things with my dad, such as cooking or driving.\u00a0 I\u2019ve had dreams of having silly tiffs with my mom or other mundane things and conversations.\u00a0 In fact, I have had more fun with my dad in my dreams then when he was actually living.\u00a0 I once dreamt of a cousin who came to see me.\u00a0 He was wearing a white suit, looking very sharp and mature.\u00a0 I hadn\u2019t seen him since we were kids and that was 1974, but he died in the 80s.\u00a0 The virus took him away and it was a family secret.<\/p>\n

I had wished I had gotten to know him better. \u00a0\u00a0My mom used to shake her head about how swishy he was.\u00a0 She said he could snap you into next week. \u00a0I got the feeling we would have had a blast together and a lot in common.\u00a0 In many ways, I think that\u2019s what may have drawn him to my dream world.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t think connecting with the dead is anything unique.\u00a0 I think anyone can do it and remember the positive experiences.\u00a0 It\u2019s just that I tend to recall the details very easily and for years.\u00a0 When I dream of familiar people who are now deceased, it\u2019s always usually a very pleasant and peaceful experience.\u00a0 We\u2019re having a good old time in the present the way we would have in the real world.<\/p>\n

Last night I dreamt of reuniting with some former Lavender Light Gospel Choir<\/a> friends.\u00a0 Three of us were posing for a group photo.\u00a0 There was David M, a third person who I can\u2019t recall since I let the time lapse before actually writing this down and myself.\u00a0 I recall that we were about to meet up with other former Lav Light members and we were chatting it up and laughing.\u00a0 The only problem is that David M was long deceased and yet during the dream I had no sense of that at all.\u00a0 I recall now that when he was alive, he was a gentle soul and always a wonder to be around.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s important to write down dreams when you first wake up and I admit, I don\u2019t do it often enough.\u00a0 I keep a dream diary by my bed but lately it\u2019s been collecting dust because if I start, my pen will burn or I will burn up the keyboard one way or another.\u00a0 The end result will leave me feeling exhausted the next day.\u00a0 I usually end of tossing and turning anyway which is the net difference.<\/p>\n

Dreams about death and trying to make sense of it all\u00a0 reminds me of the British TV mystery, Waking the Dead<\/a>.\u00a0 It was a crime series about a team of personalities who put together the puzzles of solving crimes forensically.\u00a0 What I really liked about the show was that it delved deeply into the lives of the main characters and their flaws.\u00a0 It exposed their strengths and vulnerabilities.\u00a0 I think just about every episode they were put to the test and it was ultimately the balance of their training versus their humanity that kept them on the mission as a team.<\/p>\n

As a team, they each fulfilled a pivotal role to maintaining the unit. \u00a0I think dreams are like that in that we dream with a purpose even though we \"\"<\/a>may not be conscious of it.\u00a0 All the characters in a dream fulfill a role in the whole narrative, much like a play or opera.\u00a0 In the opera, the narrative can be symbolic much like Einstein on the Beach<\/a>.\u00a0 It very much felt a like a dream to me. By the way, I\u2019ve seen every episode of Waking the Dead through series 6.\u00a0 I discovered the show after it went off the air and thank God for Netflix streaming video.<\/p>\n

I think my sub consciousness wants to schedule an appointment with kind spirits but the superego prohibits it.\u00a0 When I sleep, all bets are off as I am uninhibited.\u00a0 I noticed that when I dream of spirits, they appear as I remember them best. My mother and father are always in their 50s or early 60s the every latest.\u00a0 My cousin is dapper and both babysitters (Mrs. Brown and Mrs. Bradley) are quite youthful.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t have any conclusions to make, except that I am still on the journey.\u00a0 I will h\"\"<\/a>old on for the ride, fasten my seat belt and go!\u00a0 It really does feel like a roller coaster ride and I never liked roller coasters when I was kid.\u00a0 I remember refusing to ride them in Palisade Park<\/a> when I was a kid and I don\u2019t fancy airplanes, but I always catch that flight.<\/p>\n

During dreams, all bets are off.\u00a0 I am like a superhero without the cape and blindfold. \u00a0No joke! \u00a0And there are times when I most vulnerable.\u00a0 I don\u2019t know what to expect next, but I leap forward.\u00a0 I am like Jacque Cousteau charting the next island of dreams and I kind of like the journey forward, even more so that the interpretation.\u00a0 Besides, I am pre-occupied with dreaming or rather remembering than trying to figure them all out.\u00a0 I suppose that\u2019s truly the next growth step.<\/p>\n

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